Saturday, May 15, 2010

Double Digits



10 years ago today my life changed forever. I entered the crazy world of motherhood.

I think it was quite fitting that I went to the hospital the night before, which happened to be Mother's Day, to be induced. I had no idea what to expect with labor. Or with becoming a mom. I was one of those people who had said (or at least thought) "My kids will NEVER be the kids throwing a temper tantrum in the grocery store. Or eating fast food. Or have snotty noses and dirty faces. My kids will be controlled." Oh man, I can picture God above chuckling and getting ready to make me eat my words.

When Miles finally entered this world he was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen... and that is saying something because for those of you who have seen a newborn, you know what they look like: covered in goo and screaming. As an aside, I find comfort in the fact that this is the way God looks at us. We are drenched in our awful sins, dragging our feet and kicking and screaming, yet he loves us just the same.

I can remember leaving the hospital with our new baby. And no instruction book. As the youngest in my family, I had plenty of nieces and nephews around and had taken care of lots of babies. It's a different world though when they belong to you. When you are one of the two people that have been entrusted with a new life. I can honestly say that it wasn't until that day that I could truly start to appreciate my parents and all that they had done for us.

10 years have passed. We added two more kids to round out the family. We are done with diapers and formula and getting up every two hours for feedings. We have traded in the booties for baseball cleats and the rattles for video game controllers. The funny thing is that with every new stage we enter with our kids it's like reverting back to having a newborn. We don't know what to expect and we still wish we had the instruction book.

Happy birthday Miles. We love you so much. Thank you for being the one that introduced me to the crazy, beautiful thing called motherhood.