Tuesday, July 08, 2008

at a loss

It's after 2 a.m. and instead of crawling into bed I find myself at the computer writing this post. I just got home from spending a few hours with Nicole, Kelly and their family.

Becky died tonight. The words seem unreal.

In the past weeks I have watched cancer literally steal her life. Just 2 weeks ago I was at her place watching her get ready for a birthday party... we were talking and laughing. A week ago I was holding her hand when she told me she wasn't sure how much more she could take. The pain was much worse and the cancer had started to effect her brain function. Yesterday I kissed her head and said goodbye as she blankly stared forward. I don't know how much she took in; what she could still understand. Tonight I watched the man from the funeral home take her out of her house for the last time.

I am exhausted tonight. Time for some sleep.


  1. I am sorry to hear that. Her family will be in our prayers.

  2. I am so sorry for you and everyone. Friend, please let me know what you need from me. I love you!